Well, it has been a while.
I thought I'd restart this blog as an exercise in journaling and self reflection, especially since it's been over a year since I started hormones. Since then, I've managed to change my name, get my finances under control and start considering top surgery.
So, as far as a short update goes:
October 2011 marked one year on hormones for me, and it's been a very good year. Despite some other personal struggles, I found my self-esteem getting better and my dysphoric episodes retrograding. A year and some on, I'm much calmer, stronger and confident. The changes that the hormones have elicited have been nothing short of amazing for me.
December 7, 2011 was like a second birthday. I sat nervously in a courtroom for 10 minutes, answered a series of questions with "Yes, your honor" and "No, your honor" and walked out with a sheet of paper that said (To me at least) "You are now free." It was exhilarating and relieving to change my name, to finally be free of one of the last vestiges of the female identity that had been placed on me. I was giddy to say the least, and I had to have been the happiest person the DMV had ever seen walk in.
Now, I'm mulling surgery. It's expensive, yes. But it could be the last thing I need to have done. My name is changed, my HRT is going well...it's the last body issue I have to deal with.
A video may be forthcoming, either tonight or tomorrow.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Yes, I've been on hormones for almost half a year! First of all, I can't believe time's gone by so fast, and second, I can't believe I'm seeing all these changes so fast! (well, I can, but I'm excited so who cares?)
Here's a fresh video for you.
Here's a fresh video for you.
Friday, January 14, 2011
It's been an eventful week, but I still don't mind answering questions! Oh, and a new video for you too.
Again, what sex character do you prefer to play as?
Thanks for watching, see you next week.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Thursday, December 16, 2010
It's nice to be done with the semester, but break feels busier than school was. I'm working with the county Parks and Recreation department, and Amber and I are working on the wedding and making plans to visit family for Christmas. Oh well, at least I'm not sleeping all day (although that would be nice).
Anyway, I'm going text only today, since I'm a bit sick. I've been on T for two months as of the 14th, and I can't believe how much has changed already. My voice has dropped a ton, and I'm experiencing loss of my higher vocal range, accompanied by that oh-so-teenage staple of voice cracking. At 21, it's actually a lot funnier than if I were 13 or 14. Hair is appearing EVERYWHERE, and what I already had is thickening and getting darker. Lots of chest hair, and my facial hair is getting thicker and darker, especially on my upper lip (Amber says no mustaches though). I've got a little bit of growth on my chin and sideburns, but the jawline hair is the last to come in. I shaved on the 5th or 6th, and I've already got as much growth in a little over a week than I used to get in a month.
My dosage is back on schedule as well, and my doctor and I figured out a 6 week checkup schedule that will make sure I don't run out again. All my hormone levels are vastly different from my pre-T blood work, and I'm not converting the T to estrogen, which means that I can probably increase my dose soon. I'm also working out regularly now, so I should be seeing some speedier fat redistribution and more muscle mass.
Appetite has curbed a little bit, mostly due to willpower and not having time to eat a ton, although a coworker commented on my sizable lunches (Typically a large sandwich, yogurt, apple, vitamin water, treat and carrots).
Well, that's all for this week. Next week I'll do an early video and then perhaps some X-mas updates. I have had conflicts with family before, but they seem to be getting better. I'll keep everyone posted.